Rebirth Festival Gift

Chapter 1
The Beginning

Chapter Description: The start of it all, perhaps more will come later.

She looked at the infant in the stroller as it was wheeled away the opposite direction. With a sigh the young woman, well, woman wasn’t exactly what she was, shemale was more appropriate, she headed for the library for another long boring day, without much to do. Many would say she had the perfect life, and some did say that, but she didn’t. On disability because no one would hire a ’freak’, as most people thought of her, even though she couldn’t help it. With a shave and some light makeup no one knew, until they saw her history. The state even changed her gender status from male to female, because no one wanted to know. In her mind she no longer cared, she just wanted to try again, life that is. Knowing more wasn’t the issue, she knew she’d still make a lot of mistakes, but those years were so much more exciting.

Boredom was worse than being harrassed, but since no one who looked at her ever suspected what was between her legs, everyone treated her like a young lady. Kirsten never thought that would be such a bad thing, but now it annoyed her, stuck in limbo in almost every way possibly except in life itself, she still had to go through the drudgery of life, eating, sleeping, and crapping, but it was all an dull chore to her now. She sighed as she entered the library, some man held the door open for her, funny, she didn’t even try to look female anymore, wore dresses and skirts, but in the winter she wore a bulky warm dress and didn’t even bother to dress up, but they all still wanted to believe she was a true, fully genetic, female. She politely nodded a thanks then wandered to a table to work online for a little, with so much spare time she just kind of wandered through website after website hoping for something to change.

But life was cruel and everything was the same as always, every possible relationship she encountered was about nothing more than sex, some gay men or straight women, who never liked her after meeting her because she was ’too’ female for them, but she was only being herself. The straight men and gay women didn’t like the extra features between the legs. So she just resigned herself to some chat friends and the few at the dorm she lived in, but started to hate the idea of sex and love. Life was more boring, but something interesting did catch her eye, and adult baby site. Most of it was of a sexual nature, which bothered her even more, but she loved the cute little girl outfits and wanted to wear them. The prices were too much so she just dreamt of them instead.

Too busy clicking on things she never noticed the woman peeking over her shoulder. A larger woman, pretty to even make Kirsten jealous, snickered to herself a little. Kirsten twisted her face into a snarl and turned, but the woman spoke before she could be scalded for prying.

“Those are so cute, it would be even cuter if they were actually babies huh?” The woman smiled softly, almost like a mother without a child would.

Kirstens face softened and she sighed, turning back to the computer. “I would love to be one of them, at least their lives are changing somehow.” Kirsten never noticed the woman’s own face brighten at these words.

“My name is Lucy, but everyone your age calls me momma.” Kirsten was no younger than this woman but she took it as a compliment instead.

“Name’s Kirsten.” She half turned still surfing while chatting with Lucy. “So, you want to go to coffee or something sometime?” In Seattle, coffee shops were the hang out place, at least that’s what everyone out of the city thinks, in reality though, only regulars hung out there, everyone else just came and got coffee and left, and the regulars rarrely talked too each other. Lucy smiled sweetly, Kirsten stopped surfing without realising she was suddenly giving her full attention to Lucy.

“I would love to, how about now?” Lucy was forward, Kirsten would normally just exchange numbers or email but somehow she nodded and was still giving Lucy full attention, really odd since no one could pry Kirstens attention from her laptop for more than a second. Lucy tapped the corner of the computer, “Probably should shut that down sweety.”

At the coffee shop Kirsten and Lucy got to know each other, sort of. Lucy wanted to know more about Kirsten’s childhood than anything. Lucy was unable to have children, and combined with the fact that she was a little overweight no man would ever date her, much less marry her. So she just kind of became a momma to a lot of other people’s children, the neighborhood babysitter. She didn’t mind too much but wished she could have a child of her own. As they talked, Kirsten kept getting a strange feeling of sitting on Lucy’s lap and the only reason she didn’t was because of a fear that Lucy may get upset and be scared off.

Kirsten liked Lucy, but not like dating, and normally Kirsten would love to date someone like Lucy because then she could be herself instead of trying to fit into any certain class or role in life. She felt too close to Lucy though, something kept pulling her attention to Lucy, who she even started to think of as momma and even called her that a few times, once even accidentally calling her mommy. Lucy didn’t mind, even seemed to bask in this. If it was summer Kirsten may have noticed her clothing getting looser, but the bulky dress was already loose on her and she never noticed.

“Why do you live in a dorm?” Lucy’s question was a common one for Kirsten to hear.

“Well, being on disabillity I cannot afford to rent anywhere so I stay at the shelter. Not too bad a place for the price.” Kirsten hated most of the people there really, but she could only half remember why right now.

“I have a spare room for you if you want to move in.” It was more of a suggestion than anything and Kirsten smiled, suddenly wanting very much to live in the same house as Lucy.

Smiling sweetly, childlike in her own way, she spoke, her voice becoming a little more high-pitched than normal, which made it sound more like a squeek than ever. “I would love to, how much rent though, I can’t afford too much.”

Lucy chuckled the way an adult would to a child. “Nothing for my little girl.” The tone would have seemed strange to Kirsten, but something was changing, and that she liked, she simply embraced the diversion and gave Lucy all her focus still. “And we’ll get some cute little outfits for you to.”

Kirsten giggled, something she hasn’t done in a long time. With that Lucy stood up and left, Kirsten following like a loyal child, not really noticing that she was looking more like a teenager now than she normally did, which wasn’t much compared to everyone else. She aged slower than most as her unique body never produced as many hormones as other people. They got into Lucy’s car and Kirsten set her computer in the back with her backpack, which had some hygiene stuff and a few books. When she sat in the front seat the car looked a lot bigger inside than she expected, suddenly a wide grin appeared on her face, feeling giddy as she realized she was actually smaller, Lucy could even pick her up if she wanted.

Kirsten was the same as when she was in her early twenties, looking like a teen and the same size as one. Lucy smiled at her, knowing this would happen, she spoke with a knowing and motherly tone now. "Sweety, how would you like to go shopping for some of those cute little clothes now?"

Kirsten nodded and giggled. "Diapers to?" Lucy chuckled and they drove off to the nearest mommy/daughter store they could find. Inside they bought a whole lot of clothes, mostly baby sized, Kirsten’s dress was dragging on the ground now so when they got into the car Lucy started to change her, but Kirsten froze suddenly, she never told Lucy what to expect and that fear krept into her eyes.

Lucy seemed to understand and stopped, looking Kirsten in the eyes. "Didn’t you notice that I bought some little boy outfits to?" Indeed she had, Kirsten nodded slowly remembering but still not sure what to think. "I know what you are, the perfect baby, I have a baby boy and a baby girl now, but I only have to change one diaper." Kirsten giggled at that, her mind slowly following her body but her memories in tact. She realized that something odd was happening, something that would normally scare someone, but she liked it and smiled with a cheesey grin at her new mommy, with that she was changed into a cute little unisex sailor outfit, something Lucy picked out.

Kirsten reflected as they drove to the grocery store, her first childhood was horrible, a mother who thought the child was demon spawn and never let her forget it. Her brother and sister were no different, they never knew what was happening and just made her miserable. Her father was great, but he had to work so hard to keep food on the table that he didn’t notice how bad his little prodigy was, untill she was 15. The last three years she lived at home were the best, and yet she worked herself to the bone helping out her father at his job instead of playing with people her own age. She never did have a real childhood, never played dolls or trucks, never had much fun in the playground.

"Mommy, what age will I be when it stops?" She wanted to know, Lucy chuckled though.

"Don’t you want to know what is going on first?" Kirsten shook her head and smiled, she didn’t care how or even why. "As young as you want to be."

Kirsten giggled. "Need newborn diapers then." It was the truth, she wanted to have a real childhood. Then she blink and tilted her head in the way a young child, as young as she was, would. "Will I remember everything."

Lucy smiled and shrugged. "You will probably remember what you want, since your brain is getting younger to not everything will remain in tact, but most of it will." With that Lucy brushed Kirsten’s long blonde hair gently and smiled. "If you forget how to use your computer don’t worry, I’ll hold onto it untill you are old enough for it again, maybe we’ll even get you a new one." Kirsten shrugged and giggled, now she was looking more like a toddler, as they pulled into the parking lot she hadd to hoist herself up a little to peer out the window.

She wasn’t much smaller really, not compared to the teen years that just flew by, in reality she knew she was about 10 now, but she looked about 5. So small, so slow at actually aging, maybe this mom will let her enjoy each stage before making her move on to the next. Lucy intended to, hoping that the aging process would be even slower this time. They ended up with several packages of newborn diapers, and one larger package. Kirsten was so good that Lucy bought her a candy bar, something Kirsten didn’t even like since she was a child the first time. Looking about 3 now Lucy stopped before putting Kirsten in her new carseat.

"Want the diaper now?" Lucy wanted to do this more than Kirsten it seemed, and Kirsten shrugged smiling sweetly. "I don’t want to embarress you yet unless you are ready."

Kirsten giggled, well, it was a laugh really but it sounded like a giggle at her current age. "Not be embarrassed by mommy ... never be embarrassed." With that Lucy picked up the child and pulled off the little shorts of her outfit, laying her down, with everything showing, Kirsten would have been embarrassed once, but she no longer cared, this was a dream come true and she would play the role perfectly, the perfect little baby for her new mommy.

Lucy powdered her little bottom and privates, laying a pamper under her and strapping it on, when she was about to put the shorts back on Kirsten stopped her and giggled. "Diaper cover it all up. Not need dat." Her language wasn’t really effected as much as she was using, but she wanted this so much it didn’t matter anymore, she just became a baby in her mind by sheer will, but still she held onto the memory of her first life, so she would always be gratefull to Lucy.

Lucy smiled and put her in the carseat, strapping her in, her new diaper and sailor top was all she wore now, and she felt more comfortable and peacefull than ever. Their drive home was so much fun, they chatted about everything, everything a toddler and mother would chat about. No more politics, no more religion, no more money, no more worries, Kirsten was in such a wonderfull mood. Lucy stopped once to adjust the car seat for Kirsten’s younger form.

They pulled into the drive of a rather large home, carrying the baby now, Lucy entered and called to a servant to bring in the things they had bought. Suddenly Kirsten realized her new mother was rich, for some reason it never dawned on her to ask. Looking at the large room that was the greeting room she looked at her mother. "Who are you mommy?"

Lucy smiled understanding. "Even angels have secrets." Lucy laid the baby Kirsten on the floor, Kirsten was barely able to walk so decided crawling was perfect, her size was that of a newborn, even though she was actually about a year old. She had stopped getting younger and giggled, looking at her mommy she smiled wide.

Lucy sighed knowing very well what happened and picked up the messy baby. "My first real diaper change." With that they went to the nursery, prepared by the servents rather quickly Kirsten thought, but she didn’t think much more than that. Lucy went through the change humming softly all the while. Once she was done they went to watch TV, not Barney or Tubbies, but the japanese Transformers, dubbed in english, Kirstens favorite was Japanese animation, Lucy even knew that.

Kirsten was exhausted finally and Lucy placed her in the crib and paused at the door, speaking softly more to herself. "Happy spring festival my gift, my child, my baby." With that she went to her own room and fell on the bed, happier than she had ever been since her childhood. Looking at the ceiling she smiled and chuckled. "Thank you gods, this is the time of rebirth after all."

-- Note: The story is actually about my own life, up untill the regression. I am pagan and do not follow the Christian holidays at all, but I do believe in the gods and the rebirth festival of spring.